new years resolutions.

Well i have so many!

1.) I must actually do some work and stop skipping school.
My parents keep lecturing me about my lack of effort. And i keep saying "But i'm working hard" and its such a big fat lie. I am rather behind. So i must work my butt off this term to catch up. I need to do so much art, so i will probably go to the art rooms at lunch to try and do more work, and i need to do a couple of pieces every night. Starting tonight of course. I will do a nice oil painting in a minute. Second of all history, i need to copy up somebody's notes. I'm not too behind, but i definatly need to get my folder looking all spic and span. I also need to catch up on my english essays, i have a couple to do. Luckily, my media and general studies is all good. I also hope that i don't get found out about all my bunking off. I shouldn't do, since our school office just got knocked down, and i havn't had any letters or anything yet. As long as my attendance is amazing this term, i should be okay. Its not to late for me to still get amazing as results, as long as i put the work in now. I MUST prove my parents wrong :) I'm going in early tommorow, so i have 4 hours to get some history work done in the computer rooms.

2.) LOSE WEIGHT.
Okay mentioned previously, and i have lost a bit, but thanks to the festive spirit, i have probably put on a few pounds, and there are still many more to lose. My whole family is going on a health kick, so i need to just eat not a lot and eat healthily. And lots of excercise. I'm going to purchase ministry of sounds "pump it up" and start using my excercise bike more. Once its warmer, and i am fitter, i can jog along the beach.

3.) CLEAR MY SKIN - I am going on accutane in about 10 days, so this hopefully will be an easy one. But i must stick to it, and i need to stop chewing my hair, because thats probably worsening it. Its a terrible habit! And keeping my hair tied back, healthy eating, plenty of water and excercise will also help speed it up.

4.) BE NICER - Bit vague, i know. But i've been a bit of a cow recently, and i'm usually know as being very outgoing and bubbly and chatty. This is mainly directed at my family, but i also need to socialise more at my new school. I have vert limited confidence because of my bad acne and i hate my figure, but i have no excuse once i'm all cleared up and i've lost more weight. I need to start chatting to more people and stop hiding away in the computer rooms/ sneaking off to have a cigarette. I need to establish a better friendship group. Atm, its all a bit vague, and i don't feel i belong anywhere. I feel, for the first time in my life, like an outsider. Nobody knows who i am, and its just worsening my confidence.

5.) VISIT OLD FRIENDS MORE - I probably won't see them until march time now, because i am hoping to be working, and i will be on medication and i really need to concentrate on my studies/socialising with friends here for now. But once i'm done with that, i want to go back on a more regular basis and have them to stay with me here. I just feel so unsettled now, and they think i'm having a good time. I can't let them see i am unhappy, so once i am happy and have good friends, they can come down whenever.

6.) GET A JOB - I need to send my cv everywhere. And i need to stop being so snobby about where to get a job, i will be ecstatic anywhere, i just need some money! I'll probably start babysitting aswell. Or maybe try and sell some of my art?? Who knows....

7.) Take up the guitar again, and start discovering new music. This is a bit of a fun one, just something i'd love to but keep putting off really. I need money so i can buy a new guitar, as i sold my old one to a friend. Perhaps i'll buy that one back. I just need a hobby really, i do nothing atm.

8.) SMILE - I need to be happier. Hopefully everything above will help this. I was always so smile but now i always look so glum. I've been told i have a lovely smile in the past. I think a smile can make someone look more beautiful than any make-up.

9.) LEARN TO DRIVE AND PASS DRIVING TEST - I just really want to drive! I'm getting driving lessons for my birthday in a couple of weeks time. Think of the independence it would give me.

So there we go. There are other things i should do such as quit smoking, spend more time with the family etc.. but those will have to wait until next year maybe?

Quite alot, hope i can stick to a few of them, if not all of them. They aren't too extreme, just so i can stick to them really :) I'll have to get back to you though..